Last weekend, I went out with my crossdressing friend Andrea, W and M, because John had to work overhours. It was the first time I’ve been to a disco in many, many years and I have avoided having to dance my whole life through. I was nervous, because I went as Ginny. I wanted to look naturally and not like a discoqueen, so I just put on discreet make up and I wore jeans and a shirt. I feared not being allowed to enter the club, but we had no problems with getting in. Inside, W got us drinks and we stood around for a while, until Andrea wanted to dance. She persuaded me to join her. Again I feared harrassment, but everyone seemed to be fine with us being around. It took me so much, but after the first dance I loved it! I had only wished John would have been there. He wouldn’t have trusted his eyes 😀
After a while, we returned to the bar and ordered drinks, and when Andrea had finished hers, she went back to the dancefloor, but I wanted to rest another moment. A man came over to me. He had danced near us and now asked me whether he could invite me to a drink. I said he might. We talked or rather shouted at each other and after he while we danced with each other and just had fun. I could clearly sense he liked me and I liked him, too, because he was kind and sweet.
I excused me and went to the toilets. I texted John about that man and he just texted back “enjoy yourself, but no cumming”. You know, I still don’t have the Birdlock on and he controls me, but in that moment I just thought how much I missed my cage…
I returned to that man and we chatted, danced and drank some more (I switched to juice because I don’t tolerate alcohol that well). I didn’t stop him when he tried to kiss me and when he asked me whether I would accompany him outside, I said yes. When we came out of the club, I was deaf 🙂 He had his car down the street and drove us to a quiet spot in that area. I told him that I needed to tell him something, and he just said “I know you’re not a real girl….”. We had to laugh, and I explained that he was right, but that that wasn’t actually what I was talking about. I explained to him that I am owned and in chastity, though I don’t wear a device right now. I could see how much he liked that. He said how amazing that was and if that meant that I was just to take care of him and that he wouldn’t have to satisfy me. Well, yes. He got really aroused by that thought and it didn’t take long to make him cum for the first time. Later, I let him fuck me outside the car and it was so intense that I edged several times. You know, after not being able to cum by being fucked alone for a long time, I now am able to have Sissygasms from penetration alone, and in fact they’re really intense.
He just kept fucking me and the whole stimulation and situation somehow pushed me over the edge. When I felt it cumming, I knew it was wrong, but on the other hand I didn’t want it to stop. It was just too good. Later, he brought me back to the club where me spend a little more time with each other. When Andrea, W and M wanted to go, I told him goodbye and we didn’t exchange our numbers.
When I came home, John was already asleep, so I went to have a shower and fell asleep as soon as my head hit the pillow.
The next morning, I was awake before John and snuggled up beside him. I knew I had to tell him and when he woke up, I did. First, he didn’t reply in any way and I feared he would yell at me or be disappointed. But suddely he smiled and pet my hair. If you’ve been reading this blog for a while, you know that a smiling, gentle John is most times more likely to be cruel than a yelling John, so I expected the worst. And it came. He still stroke my hair when he said with his calm, kind voice: “Sweetie, you’ve been a good gurl telling me you failed. I appreciate that”. He kissed me on my forehead. “But you have failed so miserable that I feel it is my duty to help you back on track. Today you go back into the Birdlock. No cumming until the end of this year. Hearty congratulation, honey”.
I could say whatever I wanted, he didn’t react to any of my explainations or excuses and just told me to bring him the device. He locked me back in and that’s it now. No cumming anymore this year.
Of course I’m sad about that and I know this will be very, very hard, but on the other hand that experience was simply beautiful. I was so afraid of being harrassed out there as Ginny, but I just had a nice night, and of course it was amazing being wanted as a gurl. I think I pass very well now and if I want it, I pass unseen. What more could I wish for? I mean, except from being allowed to cum? 😀